Singleness: Part 1

A couple weeks ago, I got coffee with a friend and she challenged me to be intentionally single until the end of the school year... I was scared and didn't have much faith in myself to accept the challenge, but I did.

Okay, lets jump ahead a few days from when she gave me this challenge. Last weekend I went on a retreat to New Mexico with my organization, Chi Alpha. It was so dope getting closer to Jesus and friends. On the last night during worship, I just kept praying that God would baptize me in the Holy Spirit. As I was praying, one of my good friends was filled with the Holy Spirit and began speaking in tongues. However I wasn't defeated when the song ended because I hadn't feel the Holy Spirit fill me, I felt refreshed. That's when one of my good friends and spiritual leaders came over to me and told me that God was speaking through her, telling me that He's unveiling me to be His bride and that I'm going to go from glory to glory. 

Okay, so what the heck does that even mean? I definitely was confused, but grateful because now I know that God is pursuing me to be His lover. Which is... dope. That should just be the title of my blog since I'm going to be using that word a lot more.

Anyways, I asked my small group leader what the meant and she told me to pray, read scripture, and journal. So that's what I started doing, but I didn't want this journey to be private. That's why I'm making this journey of singleness public on this blog.
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Last night I read a chapter in the book Hinds Feet on High Places (which is a dope book). The main character, Much Afraid, was going up the mountain with her guides Sadness and Sorrow. As they were making their way, her cousin Pride showed up and took her by the hand. His intentions were to bring her back to her home with her family that only cared for her now that she was on this journey to the High Places. I got annoyed because I figured homegirl was going to go with him, but instead she called out for the Shepherd, who came to the rescue.

You're probably wondering what this has to do with singleness, and I guess it actually has nothing to do with it. When I read this, I just got to thinking that if I ever feel weak in this season of singleness and have the urge to text an ex or download Tinder, I could just call out to the Shepherd (Jesus, duh) and He will come to my rescue and remind me why I'm doing this. I'm doing this so I can fall in love with Him before I give myself to anyone else. 

1 John 4:18

There's no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.